There's Nothing Left to Beg For

Isn't it amazing how pissed off you can be one minute and then how thankful you can be the next? Maybe amazing isn't the right word... Heh. Well, I am officially on the edge of losing my mind because of school and I have to give him a lot of credit for helping me scrounge up the 600 dollars to register part-time, wait in line with me for 4 hours to actually register, only to find out that I can't register. I love how when you ask about holds on your account they don't tell you til' the very last minute that you have an "outstanding balance" wherein I HAVE to pay 800 dollars before they will even let me register. So there that went. I am so frustrated and depressed and almost hopeless. And I feel terrible that he's forced to have to deal with me like this. Part of me wants to drown myself in every negative vice that I can think of while the tiniest part of me knows that I just have to keep going. I'm worried about what to tell my mom. Whether she'll understand. Whether I'll ease up long enough on myself to not feel like a complete failure. I have until Thursday to find over a thousand dollars. I have two days. We'll see where that goes. But until then I just want to say Thank You Chach... for always making my problems YOUR problems and for always trying to help me even when I'm acting up and don't deserve to be helped. I am more thankful for you than you could even imagine.

The Plan

Need: $1,200

- Financial Aid ---> $0
- Get a loan ---> $0
- Ask Kris' Mom ---> $200
- Ask my dad ---> $0
- Ask Ninang ---> $0
- Ask my grandfather ---> $500
- Gather extra cash from relatives ---> $0
- Ray ---> $200
- Kris ---> $200
- Paycheck ---> $100